My Imperfections

Adulting. It’s not my favorite.

Do you ever have those days where you start out with the best intentions, but halfway through you are totally in survival mode? Your plans flew out the window hours ago and you are now a yelling irritated over caffeinated mess?

Yup. Me….that would be me. The biggest “adult lesson” that I have learned in the past few months is that it is OK to fall apart. I know, that goes against our grain. Well, at least it does mine. But seriously, life is messy and imperfect. We do our best to keep our pieces together, but sometimes they get a bit scattered. Pick up what you can, and call it good for the day, knowing that there is always tomorrow. I have to learn not to be a yelling mom and just stop being so uptight about all the things being messy and imperfect. My 11-year-old child had to tell me to go outside and meditate today. hahaha! Oops!

Needless to say, we didn’t get everything on our education list completed today, but that is ok, right? It just has to be, because it is the reality. I figure just because we didn’t get to his reading and writing today doesn’t mean that his entire future is blown. It means, I probably make sure it is first on the list tomorrow, but you know?…I looked at what we did do today, and I think I am ok with it. Homeschooling has its perks but is not without its challenges.

So grammar was skipped today, but what he did do was ride his bike down to check the mail to get outside and enjoy the sun, he spent some time on the trampoline, and he spent 40 minutes “experimenting in the shower with different hot water temperatures and steam points”…yeah, I’m not sure about that one. I just hope there was some experiment with soap in there, too. hahaha! He laughed a lot, he hugged me a lot, he asked me questions about history. We watched the Olympics and he wanted to look up the different countries being represented. He researched the UK, and he went and grabbed his Altas to see where Germany was.  He learned about Pearl Harbor and it’s connection to WWII and he practiced the first couple elements on the periodic table while playing with his Hot Wheels.

Today, Sam was a kid. A happy and healthy kid who learned a little about academics and a lot about life, determination, and sacrifice.  Those darn dangling participles and verb tenses can just wait until tomorrow. 🙂

There you have it, my biggest personal lesson that I have been learning is allowing myself some grace to not be perfect and to just let life flow. Guys, it is liberating!  Because let’s face it, most days, I am a complete mess held together by dry shampoo and coffee. I need to learn to breathe and let go. Maybe take my son’s advice and go outside and meditate when the walls of life start pressing in.  I want to cherish every second I have been given and not waste it being irritated and frustrated and focusing too much on what wasn’t but instead focusing on was was and what is! Maybe that is a glass half full type of thing, but you know…that guy had a good point. 🙂

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